The Weekly Bleat: Another View of Green Hill Farm
According to a notification from WordPress, it’s been one year since I became the voice of Fourth Generation Farmgirl— blogging mostly, but not entirely, about the happenings on Green Hill Farm—past and present. I want to express my thanks to those of you who take time out of your busy days to read my posts. I am deeply appreciative of your interest, enthusiasm, support, and encouragement.
Green Hill Farm is certainly part of my identity and most definitely occupies a significant part of my heart and soul. It was a MAJOR undertaking to save this place (house, cottage, barn, outbuildings, etc.), but I was compelled to do it out of love—love of family and love of continuity. The past decade was never easy; for various reasons, it was overwhelming and anxiety-laden along with too much heartbreak. There were, of course, joyful moments, and those are what I focused on for a long time; however, about a year ago, I began wondering if I could continue to stay. I was so unhappy, for reasons I cannot openly discuss, that I couldn’t see the beauty anymore because of the despair. It seemed ironic to me: I tried so hard, I accomplished so much, and yet, I felt defeated.
So, I started remembering—remembering WHY this endeavor was important to me: I remembered my grandparents; I remembered caring for the sheep and chickens; I remembered my kitchen garden; I remembered the many animals I rescued; I remembered playing on the farm and spending time in this house as a child; and finally, I remembered my heart. I started writing, and the reasons came pouring out of me. I wrote and wrote, discovering writing’s cathartic nature; and, after some generous and supportive feedback from family and friends, I decided to start this blog.
Writing Fourth Generation Farmgirl has given a fresh perspective and revived my love and passion for Green Hill Farm, and I owe many thanks to you—my readers. Through your eyes, I’ve seen my home anew and realize how fortunate I am to live in such a special place. Your interest, enthusiasm, and kindness have enabled me to redefine my journey here, and for that, I am grateful. Thank you all for being a part of Green Hill Farm and my journey of faith, acceptance, forgiveness, and gratitude.